So I just came from a concert. Beautiful Drukmo Gyal sang enchanting mantras with three talented musicians - Taavi Peterson, Joosep Kõrvits and Leho Rubis. Now close your eyes and imagine a fragile tiny creature with a crystal voice and three men with instruments, East meets West. A cello, guitar and a flute, which I like to refer to as the longing call of the mountains. The mantras she sang of were about traits, which we have, but need to develop more, for example love, equality, compassion and joy. One mantra was about mothers and what we have learned from them. My favorite mantra was about the elements in us, which are also the elements of nature - wind, fire, water, earth, space and how to purify those elements. It should also be on youtube, go listen here, it is truly beautiful. Do you know the feeling when your body feels heavy, but very warm, you're smiling and crying and feel just like floating all at once, this is the feeling I get listening to these mantras. First thing I did, when I arrived back home, I played my new CD, which I picked up from the concert, best investment ever. Now I have two relaxing CDs, the other one is nature sounds with wolves howling on the background. I don't even remember when and where I got it, but it takes you to the forest of magical wolves and you just run with your mind along the side of the wolves - the ultimate feeling of freedom.
Another thing that's going on in Tartu is Thinking Festival. I have already participated several lectures about psychology. There was this event called thought date where you were given a topic to discuss with the person you see for the first time for about five minutes. This should be a thing every Friday. It would be a lot easier to make friends this way. I also met several wonderful and fascinating people along the process. Some things I found out is that our mind and senses are very easily tricked, it is also easy to do with drugs, but that's another day's topic. However this mind tricking state is achieved with several tool, for example upside down goggles. Try wearing them for a while or spell your name, the hand just doesn't move. You know the picture of the dress, which to some seems to be gold & white and to others as black & blue. I always thought that it is white and gold, but in reality it is black and blue. Did you know that human brain remembers things better if you link the knowledge to something that you derive from it? Also did you know why it is easier to notice an angry face from a happy crowd than the other way around? It is so because an angry face is a threat and our mind is very protective. At one mind quiz, our team won. I am not the bragging type, but smart kids and geisha candy tasted like victory.
Also hippo's milk is pink, which is a very important fact!
This one evening I was cooking in my kitchen and I heard my upstairs neighbor playing the guitar and singing a song from Nirvana. I'm telling you, Tartu is all about music. All of the wonderful songs and sounds and places to go to listen to them, the events, even the radio is full of young talents. Most of the people I know here are musicians. Last time I drove the bus home for excruciating 2,5 hours, I wrote a song. I hope to give it a finishing touch soon, maybe someday you will hear it…
You know, I miss my family and friends like crazy, being here in Tartu, but I'm glad I moved here, because I have never loved a city this much, I haven't felt so alive and so appreciated for such a long time. Yes I still have issues and anger inside, but I'm happy, really truly happy and proud of myself. I think that if I work on myself, I will achieve the zen state, where I don't torture my mind with thoughts, but it can flow as it chooses. I am determined to achieve something important for myself and be the best version of myself that I can be.
